This is not a usual photography post. It’s a reaction to the pandemic.
31/03/2020 at 0830hrs: Three cases have been confirmed in Botswana, it was announced on the 8pm news last night.
People have sort of been waiting for these news with bated breath, as if to say, at long last, looking back at just how everyone kept asking why we don’t have any confirmed cases while over a ¾ of the globe is having escalating stats of people either dying or new numbers of people who contracted the Corona Virus.
The past couple of weeks have been nothing short of painful. About a month ago, I travelled about 700kms to attend my classes and another 500kms to visit my lover, amidst the Corona Virus outbreak. Honestly, like most people,I also basked in the bliss that came with my ignorance. I imagined China and just how far it was from Botswana. I concluded that it was just one of those China diseases and even when they said it had budged into the European households and smeared its filth all over their streets, I still sucked on my ignorance lollipop.
I remember that, 2 weeks before, I had such a horrible flu, matching most if not all the signs of the Corona Virus. I didn’t take time away from work, silly mistake number one, but then again, sometimes our jobs seem to be more important than our health. We push on and hard, even when we are at our weakest, mentally and physically. But that is a topic for another day. The second silliest mistake I did was not taking the antibiotics I was prescribed, because I just concluded that they would make me nauseous. The flu I had, kept getting worse and the fever hung around close enough to make me regret going against the nurse’s orders. I had this cough, so dry and painful that even towards the last drop of the Benylin for flu syrup, all I felt was a high from the alcohol and everything else remained still. A friend, after hearing me cough so bad, bought me the Vicks cough syrup, convinced that it would definitely help. It didn’t, the cough persisted.
At some point, I started Googling “Pneumonia” and “Bronchitis”. The feedback freaked me out and you should have seen me getting home, making sure that I took my first antibiotic. Coughing, fever, aches, headache, the possibility of having any of the two was becoming more intense. And there was an even bigger monster looming in the horizon, the games had to stop. My health came first. This is really a stupid confession because 3 days in, while I had been religiously taking my antibiotics, there was a small party, a farewell for one of my dearest colleagues. I tried and pulled against the tide to go and join the party, but the truth is, I failed and by the end of the night, I had drunk alcohol, setting myself many steps back from the course I was on towards completely healing.
People, like myself, tend to ignore, dismiss and even pass jokes about serious situations. I really don’t have any reason why that is, maybe Psychology can explain this. We had taken the Corona Virus outbreak for granted when it first started being the topic on the news in December 2019. Even when Japan started its lockdown on February 27th, we still carried on like they were the jokers. Now the joke is on us. Last week, all my focus was on work and carrying the exercise to stock up supplies for the next two months. It was only after completion of the task, that my anxiety started kicking in, finding me in an idle mode because I had nothing else to keep me preoccupied.
I had also decided to stay away, as far as possible from social media. I had consumed enough of the updates, the videos circulating around, of Indians being beaten up by the police to get off the streets, of increasing confirmed cases, of those dying and of the care-free youth dancing on the streets, drinking and as loud as their young lungs can screaming “Corona!”. The Covid-19 Alert update looks like the line-up during the Olympics, of countries competing against each other for the number one position. At first China was leading, Italy took over, Spain made it up there as well, as of today, U.S.A holds the highest number of confirmed and death cases and at last, Botswana has also joined the list. The recoveries are not even something to celebrate yet because the viral monster is still on the rampage, more people are getting infected.
Our neighbour South Africa announced the total lockdown last week and it slowly became real for us Batswana, since most of our supplies are imported from there. A friend told me that the shops in SA were mostly empty and that she was home with her family, without much to do. We didn’t get much into how she was coping but I could imagine their distress. I also intentionally avoided asking a lot, for my sake and to also allow her to process the situation gently. After the president posted on Twitter that the lockdown in our country was imminent, I did what most people did, I rushed to the shops to buy whatever I could. The thing is that, I have gone to the shops, bought the basics and have gone back three times after. I would get home with what I had bought and realise that I might have forgotten to buy one other thing. Uncertainty is painful, it’s uncomfortable and downright shitty. From hindsight, I feel like even with all the dry rations packed up in containers in my house, they are still not enough.
31/03/2020 at 0948hrs: The president has just announced Botswana’s 28 days lockdown starting from the 2nd of April 2020. It has become more real now. I just remembered that I had left the toilet paper in one of the shops I went to on Sunday and totally forgot to check in another shop. The queues were too long, everyone impatiently waiting to get inside and collect as much as they could, and some waiting to cash up enough money to sustain them during this challenging period. I just hope that we have not forgotten anything else we will need while locked down in our houses. I have just had an interesting thought while typing this, about the animals that go into hibernation and how they prepare for it prior. But people are not animals, we like freedom and going wherever we want, eating what we like, even if it puts our lives at risk, stupid at times. If you don’t believe me, watch the videos circulating on social media, they will tell you stories of ignorance and carelessness. And it is very sad how the police and soldiers are finally finding pleasure in beating people up, lucky for them, it might be an outlet to help them distress. Some people might be stuck right, unable to think clearly and have no one to talk to about how they really feel.
For me personally, it is going to be a challenge to be indoors for 28 days for sure, but the silver lining might present for me and my kids, a chance to bond more. I have been working crazy rosters and have barely stayed home long enough with my family to enjoy each other’s company and relax. Maybe this will be the time to play, to plan, to breathe, to sleep,to read, to resume my writing, to be grateful and probably, to introspect. May we all be safe, calm, learn the potential lessons from life, survive and have good stories to tell after this pandemic.